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Wednesday, 25 November 2009

random stuff for storage since im in english class

Saturday, 07 November 2009

Patiently Waiting. Waiting Patiently.

I keep telling myself that I'm patiently waiting for you to come around and finally ask me out but there's nothing patient of my waiting. I think this is the most anxious I have ever been to actually be with someone. But you like to keep me on a rope and you like to keep me waiting which is so annoying but it doesn't make me want to runaway. In fact all this waiting just makes me want to stay and wait more even though i want to kill you. At first I thought it was crazy, an 18 year old girl talking to a 28 year old guy. The age difference is unbelievable but what we have is incredible. We're so different but like you said, we compliment each other well. I wonder If what I read is true, that 70% of guys like it when the girl does the first move. I'm seriously waiting for our first kiss and it seems like it will never come but i know it will. And I miss you because I haven't seen you in almost a week. It's sad because I don't see you everyday like I used to see all my exes. I only see you once every week If i'm lucky. Sometimes I see you every 2 weeks. But i love the fact that we talk every night. It makes me feel better. And I know exactly when you're having a bad day and you say I always make you feel better so I like that you always talk to me because I make you feel better. And it's weird because I have to mention you in EVERY conversation even if it has nothing to do with you. I could be talking about chainsaws and somehow you magically pop up. I dream of you almost every night. I'm always thinking about you. I always look at your name in my phone. I always wonder if you're thinking about me when i'm thinking about you. Everytime I think about you I can't get the smile off of my face. To kind of think of it I ALWAYS have a smile on my face because i'm ALWAYS thinking about you. I can't go a day without thinking of you. I can never get mad at you because something overrides the anger and makes me happy. I have never felt this way about a guy ever and I can promise you that. I mean of course I've felt something in my past relationships but nothing like this. What we have is a lot more special. It's something genuine. I'm listening to music right now and all I can do is think of you and how badly I want to be in your arms right now. I really wish I could see you and hug you and hold your hand and just talk and talk and talk because I know you always listen to what I say even if what I say is the dumbest thing ever because you always remember what I say. No one else has ever remembered what I said word by word like you do. No one else has taken me on a 3 hour drive and talk about the dumbest things ever but still have so much fun because we were with each other. I really wish I could send you this but you're asleep. I think I'll let you see this tomorrow... yeah right you'll probably never see this. I'm off to bed because of course you'll be in my dreams. <3
I've done datingish before and I've written a really good blog for Mancouch once. I'm a veteran but I don't remember my old Username or what e-mail I used for the old Username so i'm starting fresh with new issues and i'm erasing all the old issues. I'm the happiest I have ever been and it's the truth.